Wednesday, 8 November 2017

I lost everything dearly to me

I am sorry that I shouted at you.This was the first time I did that. It was the quitting smoking syndrome really. I got mood swing from it and it effected me.

This time I really lost you. I Guess today I lost everything that is dearly to me.

I bought my ciggerette just now and I don't think I am quitting it at the moment.

I am never good for a relationship. I am not going to download any app now.

I Guess I will be alone. No one will love me for who I am. You don't love me anymore because I shouted at you. But when you shouted at me in the past does it mean you don't love me at all? I know I loved you very much, but you don't love me now. You said I disgust you and maybe that's the truth.

I think I am going to breakdown soon.

I just drink one table spoon of cough syrup, I hope it can make me sleep... And I am not sure I can sleep anymore. I don't feel like cooking my rice for my lunch Nor dinner anymore. All I need is you.

I will keep you in my heart. And I know I will miss you.




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