I am Sorry

I am sorry. Those text wasn't serious at all. I was just being angry. I didn't meet him at all. I know I shouldn't have do that. But you did it too before you should know better then and of cos I know how you feel now as I was you previously when you did that to me. But those text doesn't mean anything really and we did not meet at all if you read it. I know I shouldn't copy the things you did, and after today I will reflect on this. But I really love you. When you text those MB doesn't mean you don't love me at all right?

I don't know how to contact you as you have blocked me off. I am also not sure if you still can receive any of my text now. May be you have decided to leave me and not come back anymore.
But why I can continue and not mind about the past things you did to me is because I loved you and this just surpass it all. I can't imagine what will become the life without you. I have already blocked that person. Just like when you block those MB and the bedok resvr.

Maybe you don't love me anymore after this...
Maybe you won't come back anymore...
Maybe you will ignore me forever...
Maybe...Maybe... all this just kept flowing in my mind right now.

Please come back to me.. Please... I am sorry.

I love you and I want you to be happy. I am sorry I never have been a great boy friend to you. I couldn't satisfy your need. Playing pokemon with you, going out with you, doing the things you liked to do. I am also sorry I downloaded grindr and texted the person last night just because I was angry with you for ignoring me and blocking my call thinking that you are meeting others at that point of time. I am sorry. And I was angry you scanned my QR code without me knowing thats why I said those angry words. I couldn't turn back time nor change what had happened.. I know I am worthless to you now, you may hate me and resent me. Maybe you don't love me anymore now because of this. I am deeply sorry.

Now is lunch time, and i miss you already. I miss the time when you will text me at 11.30am telling me that you are going off to lunch. And I miss the time video calling you... I guess this will never happen again... I am depressed. I don't know what to do now. I kept looking at my phone hoping that I will receive your text, even if you scold me. I know I should have apologies to you this morning but you have ignored me now.

You know... I love you not because I need you...I need you because I love you.