Yup, today I have urge to send him recipes I saw online, or when I feel like cooking something delicious I thought of him. His always the first person I thought of to share nice things with, and sometime horror online news. Now his gonna join gym, and his gonna move on and forget about me, making new friends and be easily influenced.
Ever since I started smoking, I am not sure if my cyst was caused by smoking but somehow I felt it was. Recently it swelled up again and this time round it wasn't subsiding like it used to. I seen the doctor yesterday and the doctor gave me an injection and also prescribed me augmentin 1g. But I believe I be heal in the goddess name. So I decided to quit smoking, today is the second third day I am not smoking, praise the goddess! And I have realise one thing, when I have urge to smoke is usually I am lonely, bored, or excited, anger or upset, somehow I realise it was the emotion that when I felt I couldn't handle them I start smoking. It also a way to let me take a break and have time in my own space. Or find a excuse to leave the house.
When I want to smoke, I will just think about sometime it gave me headache, irritate my throat and caused my cyst to swell，and I will stop.
And of cos I know those people who so called liked me just want to have sex with me, is like how many of them will wish me a speedy recovery? A few nice one does and some are genuine concern and some aren't. I know who are the good ones.
I have decided to live a healthy lifestyle now. And I am happy to do that. Currently I am waiting for my mung bean soup to cook, as it detox and cleanse the body which I needed it. Glad I have Netflix to company me, I am watching my crazy ex girl friend a drama which were so hilarious, dramatic and funny!
