心灰意冷

I believe that he met someone on Hari Raya. When I texted him at 4.30pm that time I was going to ask him out, though I said I wanted to save money and eat home I didn't mention that I am not meeting him. Though I said I didn't want to celebrate his bday but do you think I really won't? If his really angry with me that time he would have reacted earlier and not just went missing for 13 hours without replying me or calling me back. And I know him too well, he will at least quarrel with me before disappearing, but it didn't happen. The next day he just used this reason as an excuse.

I believe he have known someone new, maybe even earlier then that. In the past I can always forgive him even if he cheated or betrayed me as I find those were meaningless encounter. But for this incident which he went missing for 13 hours, I believe he had met someone and spend the time with him til the next day, and I believed he liked this someone else he won't spend such quality time with him.

He had forgotten the time when he got into the car accident, who was the first one who rushed there for him beside his parents. I even stayed there longer then his parents and accompanied him until he sleep.

真是令我心灰意冷。

To him  relationship is like a job and can be replaced anytime.

The time we have had became nothing.

一切成了泡影。