I still loves you

I feel so down today. I didn't go to work today.
I feel so down to know that you no longer love me. Why did I ask you is because I still loved you. But I know there's nothing I can do and I know I can't see you again. I feel depressed. When I wokeup today I thought and wished everything was a dream. The whole day you were in my mind. Even u have done it with him but deep in me I have already forgiven you. I just want to be with you. But you told me you don't love me anymore, and that's the truth. I can't change it at all. I can only take time to accept this fact. I Guess you be happier without me. I know I am stupid, but I can't denied the fact that I loved you. My true feeling is I still loves u. But you don't anymore. I can only find ways to accept this.

Last night I kept waking up to check if you texted me, but you didn't. You know I missed you calling me laogong. I misses your morning greetings. Everytime I looked forward for 5.30pm and looked for your text at that time, because that's the time we were plan to meet. Now is 6pm. I Guess this will never happen again.

Do you know why I still look forward for your text? Because I still loves you and that's the fact. But my heart is so painful now knowing that you don't love me anymore. I really loves you, no matter what u did I will always forgive you. Even if I said those angry words it's just because I was angry. It's just normal for me to be angry over what had happened. I am just a human.

I will miss our weekend, cooking together, looking at you sleep, tickling your nose when you were and kissing your lips when you were asleep.


I feel so emotionally down now.